The Beauty of being Happy

BEAUTY

Clair de Lune is one of the most Beautiful pieces of music that I have ever heard.. the slow undulating waves of sound; rising and fulling, scaling through the Octaves, building and climbing to a Grand section of music in the middle of the piece. Blazing like the full moon in the deep night sky, and then wanning slowly and softly to a halt. Clair de Lune -- is French, literally meaning 'moonlight'. Soft at the start, bright in the middle and soft at the end. the sing matches the three stages of the moon. Beginning, Middle and End.

Sun Sets. A display of colour and rest. A party of life, energy and warmth. Looking at a Sun Set you see the many wonders of the solar system, to think that the sun is 149.6 million kilometers away from the Earth and yet appears so big, it's 109 times wide then the Earth. A mass of swirling, twisting, billowing gas. Calm yet explosive at the same time. we live off the sun, the original source of food, with out it plants would not photosynthesize, there for no food for animals and then not food for us... a truly scary thought the something so far away is woven in to our lives so momentously. Truly a Beautiful part of our life.

but my first thought when someone disagrees with my idea of Beauty is 'what would you know? Philistine!' but what if beauty is not in the eye of the beholder? we all have eyes. so we all see the same things. we all share the sight or the 'Beauty'. so what don't we share...

Thoughts... Feelings....

What if Beauty is linked with our thoughts and feelings? when i listen to the undulating sound of Clair de Lune i feel lifted, my happiness and sorrow floating with the notes on the air. The sight is not the Beauty, the feeling you get when you see that sight is.

so where am i going with this??

happiness is Beauty. I'm not saying that to be happy you have to be Beatuiful, thats 100% not what i'm saying. To be Beautiful you have to be HAPPY :) x

Take 2

Well I guess I would call my life average...

Life is hard, everyone knows that. But when you remain emotionally detached from everything it seems to just fly past... With my life at a cross roads I don't know how to continue. What should I do? Where should I go to do it? What's the best choice? What do I want?

You think you know someone (lets call this person Dad?) and then Dad lets you down, becomes a petulant little child and you can't do anything about it because people say "he's still your Dad". Fatherhood is like Trust, and like Trust it must be earned, and once you have earned that Trust you have to maintain that Trust. But not everyone is capable of maintaining Trust. And those are the people that will miss out on my life. I don't mean to sound big headed -- that person would miss out on my life -- because I know that I am not an extraordinary person. However. Dad contributed to the start of my life and he won't be able to share it due to the lack of Trust.

Up rooted and moved to suffolk... I don't mind suffolk really it's a nice place to live, albeit sparsely coated with things to do. the only thing I dislike about suffolk is:

1) the lack of hills - I mean really guy! This place is so flat that it's like God has smashed with his giant non-stick frying pan.

2) the lack of my best friend - she knows who she is! thing have changed in the past six years, but she remains a constant pillar in my life. Dude i love you and would defend you from the world should it turn it's ugly head on you!

Now back to the emotionally detached... it's easier to cut loose and be objective when your emotions are put in the back corner. i'm not saying that I'm stone cold, but when it comes to war, in the heat of the battle, emotions are your worst enemy. Life is a war, a fight to limit the pain, the hurt and the sorrow.